As Cat pointed out, I haven't really been around much. My posts are dwindling, and I appologize. But I just haven't been able to think of what to say. I can't seem to organize my thoughts or feelings into something intelligible. I'm not entirely sure whats up with that, but eh. Oh well.
My weekend wasn't as much fun as I'd intended it to be, and its left me feeling more than a little bit down. I'd wanted things to be relatively care free and relaxed... But instead of just hanging out and doing the Halloween thing, shit happened, and a should have been stress free Saturday turned into a tension fest and ended with a lot of tears and some hurt feelings. And eventhough I've forgiven the things said to me in a drunke haze... I've not yet forgotten them, and the words still sting.
I wish appologies fixed things. I wish they erased whatever transgression was comitted, and made everything new. But they don't. And no matter how well you understand the whys and hows of what happened, no matter how much you forgive, you still hurt for a while. Sometimes just a little, and sometimes a lot.
I'm sure this is shortlived... But it'd be nice if the offending party went out of his way to make it up to me... Just to show he noticed, and cares, that I'm still not over it, you know?
A little TLC would work wonders...
tess, petal, no need to apologize for dwindling posts - sometimes we need and use blogs more than other times, i was just wanting to check you were ok xx
ReplyDeleteand the tlc - i know its not my tlc that you need, but have a trans-atlantic hug anyway - and lets hope that he realises you still need those extra hugs and that extra little bit of care and attention xx
cat xx
true contrition goes a long way doesn't it.....rather than saying you're sorry just because you think you should
ReplyDeleteTess!!! Please come back. I miss you.
ReplyDeleteI have a virtual hot pretzel fresh from the streets of New York waiting for you. :)
where you be tess?
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